I've been working really hard at my mental health and using my DBT skills. (Dialectical Behavioural Therapy) It's been a very tough, long, process. I'm not ready to share all of that. I may never.
Today I was feeling unanchored and chose to listen to the blindboy podcast (which I can't recommend enough) the podcast today, rekindled a part of me I was neglecting. It reminded me to label and understand the roots of my anchorlessness. To take steps to improve the moment and plan a routine.
I came home and sat and journaled on my scraps of paper as I never get round to actually buying/using a journal.
Without further ado here are my thoughts.
How do I experience happy?
It feels good to use my thoughts to progress and grow
To create, draw, paint etc is fulfilling to me.
Knowing that my efforts to be a good dad are more positive than negative.
To be in the company of people and to converse helps me with connection to the world.
Finding little interesting things, a new word, a joke so on , these make me smile and encourage pleasant emotions.
I find joy in physical sensations that feel effortless.
I know to experience the sensation of happiness, I don't need to do all of these things. But I do need to check the ink levels and asset what my current needs are, what my opportunities are and then plan and act.
Nothing earth shattering here. But it was a necessary process to think out and realise.
It was timely as Space Wizard L needed a pep talk.
I'm off to go do the things that fill the ink levels.
