Hey there.... remember me?

This is the post I promised my self to write as an action. I'm not as happy with it a I was the first time I wrote it. Stupid crashing computer. 

Anyways my therapy ( I guess)  means I pick three tasks I have to accomplish a day. It requires a spreadsheet and graphs and all the things I love. :)

As part of this I am going to set out my 3 priorities for my web site.
1. Get all images up to date. ( 1/2 a night for a week)

2. set a side 1/2 hour to blog about the crazy crazy world of me and art.

3. (this one is a bit flaky) Update on  my (infrequent) coding progress.

and showcase ideas and sketches. I had originally placed a drawing here but then the computer crashed. 

so no picture here.

Moot point

I'm posting this to get rid of a 'should I/ shouldn't I' discussion in my head. I'll spit it out. My wife has a brain tumour and depression related to having a tumor. There's a surprise. This means she is wiped out a lot of the time and, as a result I have taken on the burden of looking after both kids and the house work. All of the factors have combined to give me a healthy dose of depression led anxiety about pretty much everything.

This is why my output has become much more irregular. It's tough yes, but I have meds and I am due to speak to someone about it all at the end of November. I don't want sympathy or complements. I worry about this post because I don't want to be seen as having a 'X factor' story to garner sympathy. This post is mainly for me. It is a post that makes the 'should I tell people or not' argument in my head a moot point.

That said if people want to ask about it I'll talk about it. I don't want to be defined by my afflictions or those of my wife. I'm here to chew gum and create stuff I love, and I'm all out of gum.

Consequently my plans for artwork keep hitting a 'I'm really tired.' filter and don't really move forward. I get enthused about an idea and then go off it, thinking what is the point as it is a shit idea. I keep chipping away at it. I'm ment to be working on my processing coding practice, but I can't really summon the motivation as I have left it so long. This is just one of a number of things on an ever increasing  list of things I should be doing that are not happening. 

 

To end on a less dull ranty note here's a joke. 

I called my Ipod Titanic.... and now it won't stop sinking!! BOOM! BOOM!

My face Your eyes.

Okay so things have been a bit crazy round Chez Cathal. I'm looking after my youngest 4 days a week. This could have been a willpower sapping disaster, which would result in me making nothing everyday.  To combat this easy slide into mind numbing non creativeness I set myself the task of creating a self portrait everyday ( excepting  weekends) .

My initial reasoning was I was thinking about the overabundance of selfies out there and how different and similar they are to art of self portraiture. I have no problem with selfies. I enjoy them, seeing my friends feeling confident enough to post an image of themselves, because they love how they look today, that's cool. Where I think selfies vs self portrait, differ is that selfies are more outward looking and self portraits are more inward looking.  This is  my initial thoughts and I'm interested to see where this goes. 

Here's the weeks portraits so far.